鬼使神差又看了一遍藍宇。這幾個月來這麽多開心的日子，我偏偏不記。偏偏又一次因同一部電影溼了眼睛。我矯情，我是太任性。我承認，可是我不以爲恥，反以爲榮。我的自尊，不值錢；我的驕傲，誰都可以嘲笑。

        哈哈哈，我們不爲什麽也大笑，不爲什麽也高高興興蹦蹦跳跳！

        自己的事情自己做，自己的笑話自己笑！

I am lucky enough to find others that said my words

After being mute for such a long time, finally I got a way to explode.

Studying pain, growing pain

expecially for those living [in between]:

 

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none

And I cannot explain to you
In anything I say or do or plan
Fear is not afraid of you
Guilt's a language you can understand
I cannot explain to you in anything I say or do
I hope the actions speak the words they can

For my pride and my promise
For my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none

For my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none

 

Oh babe how can expalain it to you

without any language

or you may once know me

[before the world was made]- Yeats

If I make the lashes dark
And the eyes more bright
And the lips more scarlet,
Or ask if all be right
From mirror after mirror,
No vanity's displayed:
I'm looking for the face I had
Before the world was made.

What if I look upon a man
As though on my beloved,
And my blood be cold the while
And my heart unmoved?
Why should he think me cruel
Or that he is betrayed?
I'd have him love the thing that was
Before the world was made.